I can’t wait to leave.

So today has been interesting.
I went to kohl’s and bought a new bra and pair of underwear. Yippee. That’s not exciting though.

Complications have arisen with my return to Columbus.

Originally, my friend was going to pick me up from the airport and let me stay at her apartment for the night. Then my ex offered both of those services, so I told my friend not to worry. Well today I found out that my ex can no longer house me for the night. So I asked my friend if it was cool if I still stayed the night…well she had already changed her plans. Now I have to coordinate between the two of them when my ex has to leave and my friend needs to be available.

Ugh. I feel like a horrible person for being so flaky and making my friend’s life so much more complicated. I know she’s not gonna hate me or anything, but I hate having to coordinate and plan and that’s what this situation has made me have to do.

I also tried to Skype with my ex tonight (his suggestion) and it was a super fail. The connection kept crapping out on us. Neither of us could hardly get a sentence in before the video feed would cut out and the connection was lost. Ugh.

It has been a slightly frustrating night.

Oh, also, my ex is in the process of quitting smoking right now. He was complaining of the fatigue he felt from it tonight. But he said, if I still smoke, he’ll probably bum cigarettes from me. I don’t know. Interesting tidbit of info I thought. I don’t think he’s really committed to quitting just yet.

I also decided to buy some new exercise clothes from amazon tonight. Let me tell you, I have never felt more guilty about a purchase than I did tonight. It’s just really hard spending my money when I know I’m supposed to be saving for my apartment.

I mean, I can rationalize it by saying that I did kind of need new workout clothes. I don’t own very many right now, and since my new year’s resolution is to go to the gym more, I need something to wear. And I’m one of those girls where, if I don’t have something cute to wear, I just won’t go. So my purchases are justifiable.

And I did budget my purchases to make sure I still had enough money to make the deposit on an apartment. I still feel bad though. My parents are freaking out so much about the cost of an apartment, it makes me feel guilty for not being like that. I’m not worried, but they seem to be, so then I get worried about the fact that I’m not worried. Ugh. So complicated.

But hopefully all the clothes fit and I like them and I won’t have to deal with the hassle of trying to send them back. I generally hate buying clothes on the Internet because you can’t try them on, but the normal stores you buy exercise clothes from just don’t offer what I want.

I also bought a book of like, buddhist children’s stories. I don’t know. I only bought it because I wanted to get the free super saver shipping. We’ll just file it away under the “for the future” category, not that a children’s book wouldn’t have valuable lessons for an adult in it. I do dream about having kids one day and teaching them about Buddhism and stuff. It’s a little fantasy of mine.

Oh well.
That was my day.
Tomorrow is my last day in Augusta thank god. I’m so ready to leave and get back to Columbus. There’s a reason they call my hometown “Disgusta”. So tomorrow will devoted purely to packing and getting ready to leave on Saturday.

Sometimes I feel guilty for 1) not wanting to come home and 2) when I am home, not enjoying my time here. But it is what it is. Like I said, Columbus is home now. I don’t really have any friends left here and I hate living with my parents. We get along much better when we don’t have to share the shame living quarters. I mean, I’ve never really been homesick before. I don’t know if I ever will be. I just like being independent and not having to be accountable to someone all the time. It’s very freeing.

But that’s my post for the night. I don’t have much else to say, other than Saturday can’t come fast enough.
Nighty night.


Leaving Tomorrow

So tomorrow I am leaving for Columbus!! The car is basically all packed up save for a few last minute things. I got my hair re-dyed today and painted my fingernails. Haha. 2 very important things crossed off my list.

Tomorrow I have to wake up at 5:30 so we can leave at 7 for our 12 hour car ride. I’m toying with the idea of just not going to bed! Haha. I mean, I go to bed around 3:30. We’re talking about 2 hours of sleep. Is it even worth it??

Yeah probably. I would feel weird not sleeping. It would be like my new day never started.

But I’m excited to finally be going back to Columbus. It doesn’t feel like it’s time to leave already! But it is. In about 4 hours I’ll be on my way.

I’m excited to see my friends. I’m excited for my classes. I’m excited to start a brand new year as a brand new person. I’m even excited to meet my roommate! (Albeit that excitement is mixed with much hesitation).

But on another note, I was thinking again today about a possible double major with history. I’m really just not sure. I really do like history, I’m just not sure if a history major would fulfill my needs.

I still feel totally committed to my interest in the Ottoman Empire and language. But I also have a side interest in the history of ancient civilizations. Part of my dream career involves consulting and studying old stuff dug up by archeologists!

So I don’t know. I think it may just be my fear of committing to a major that’s talking. I’m just so afraid, with all of my interests, what if I don’t pick the right one??

No joke, if I had all the time and money in the world, I’d major in microbiology, molecular genetics, zoology, anthropology/archeology, comparative literature, comparative religion, history, something with farm animals, plant stuff….what else am I leaving out??

I have too many interests!!

But anyways, now that I’ve gotten that out of my system…going back to Columbus yay!

I feel like I had something else to talk about tonight, but I can’t remember what it is. Oh well.

I did order my textbooks for my English class today, because the teacher emailed us about the books. I’m waiting on all the other classes until after I find out what is required. Doing that saves you from wasting money on books you might not need or use.

But yeah…I’m tired if rambling now. Tomorrow I’ll be blogging from Columbus. Hooray!!

Goodnight. :)


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