I can’t wait to leave.

So today has been interesting.
I went to kohl’s and bought a new bra and pair of underwear. Yippee. That’s not exciting though.

Complications have arisen with my return to Columbus.

Originally, my friend was going to pick me up from the airport and let me stay at her apartment for the night. Then my ex offered both of those services, so I told my friend not to worry. Well today I found out that my ex can no longer house me for the night. So I asked my friend if it was cool if I still stayed the night…well she had already changed her plans. Now I have to coordinate between the two of them when my ex has to leave and my friend needs to be available.

Ugh. I feel like a horrible person for being so flaky and making my friend’s life so much more complicated. I know she’s not gonna hate me or anything, but I hate having to coordinate and plan and that’s what this situation has made me have to do.

I also tried to Skype with my ex tonight (his suggestion) and it was a super fail. The connection kept crapping out on us. Neither of us could hardly get a sentence in before the video feed would cut out and the connection was lost. Ugh.

It has been a slightly frustrating night.

Oh, also, my ex is in the process of quitting smoking right now. He was complaining of the fatigue he felt from it tonight. But he said, if I still smoke, he’ll probably bum cigarettes from me. I don’t know. Interesting tidbit of info I thought. I don’t think he’s really committed to quitting just yet.

I also decided to buy some new exercise clothes from amazon tonight. Let me tell you, I have never felt more guilty about a purchase than I did tonight. It’s just really hard spending my money when I know I’m supposed to be saving for my apartment.

I mean, I can rationalize it by saying that I did kind of need new workout clothes. I don’t own very many right now, and since my new year’s resolution is to go to the gym more, I need something to wear. And I’m one of those girls where, if I don’t have something cute to wear, I just won’t go. So my purchases are justifiable.

And I did budget my purchases to make sure I still had enough money to make the deposit on an apartment. I still feel bad though. My parents are freaking out so much about the cost of an apartment, it makes me feel guilty for not being like that. I’m not worried, but they seem to be, so then I get worried about the fact that I’m not worried. Ugh. So complicated.

But hopefully all the clothes fit and I like them and I won’t have to deal with the hassle of trying to send them back. I generally hate buying clothes on the Internet because you can’t try them on, but the normal stores you buy exercise clothes from just don’t offer what I want.

I also bought a book of like, buddhist children’s stories. I don’t know. I only bought it because I wanted to get the free super saver shipping. We’ll just file it away under the “for the future” category, not that a children’s book wouldn’t have valuable lessons for an adult in it. I do dream about having kids one day and teaching them about Buddhism and stuff. It’s a little fantasy of mine.

Oh well.
That was my day.
Tomorrow is my last day in Augusta thank god. I’m so ready to leave and get back to Columbus. There’s a reason they call my hometown “Disgusta”. So tomorrow will devoted purely to packing and getting ready to leave on Saturday.

Sometimes I feel guilty for 1) not wanting to come home and 2) when I am home, not enjoying my time here. But it is what it is. Like I said, Columbus is home now. I don’t really have any friends left here and I hate living with my parents. We get along much better when we don’t have to share the shame living quarters. I mean, I’ve never really been homesick before. I don’t know if I ever will be. I just like being independent and not having to be accountable to someone all the time. It’s very freeing.

But that’s my post for the night. I don’t have much else to say, other than Saturday can’t come fast enough.
Nighty night.

Finally in Columbus

So I’m sitting in our hotel room, finally in Columbus.

Let me tell you, the trip today was miserable. Usually the 12 hour drive doesn’t bother me that much, it’s actually kind of entertaining. But I only got 2 hours of sleep last night and my body just would not let me sleep in the car today. Every position I could think of made some part of my body hurt, and what sleep I got was so horrible it made me feel even more tired!!

So that’s why tonight’s post is early. I’m going to bed way early. I have to get up at 6-ish tomorrow and I would like to get a good, full night’s sleep tonight.

I guess there’s really not much more to tell. I’ve already said over and over again how excited I am to see my friends and take my classes and blah blah blah. Right now I’m honestly feeling more a sense of foreboding rather than excitement over move-in day tomorrow. I just want to get it over with!

I feel like move-in day is always the most awkward day because not only are you having to meet your roommate for the first time, you’re having to meet their parents as well. I don’t know. I find meeting peoples’ parents to be awkward.
And I’m just nervous in general about how smooth tomorrow is going to go. I’m not worried so much about OSU, I know they’ve got things covered. But I’m just worried something will go wrong.

Especially because we will have OWLs (Ohio Welcome Leaders) moving my stuff to my room, I’m nervous they’ll mess something up. I’ve got several boxes that have fragile things in them, not to mention I am very protective of the plants I brought with me. And it bothers me that random strangers have to look at all my stuff. :( I’m a very private person.

I know. I’m complaining a lot. I’m sure everything will go smoothly. And I’m sure my plants will be fine. But that doesn’t stop me from worrying.

Oh my plants. My plants my plants my plants. They are probably my most prized possession I am bringing to college with me. I’ve been fussing over them for a year now, I plant to fuss over them for many more years to come. I brought 5 with me: my arrowhead, dracaena, peace lily, aloe, and pothos vine.
My room should have the cleanest air in the entire dorm. Haha.

But I guess I’m going to call it a night. There’s nothing left for me to talk about other than rambling on about my things or freaking myself out by worrying about stuff I can’t control. Neither of those are as productive as going to sleep.

Sleep sounds so good right now.

But before I go, in case you can’t infer it from the fact that I’m starting college again, I can’t promise I will be posting every night. I’ll try my best to post every day, but maybe some days I’ll post twice, maybe some days I won’t post at all. I can’t make any promises. It depends on how busy and inspired I am.

Of course I’ll try my best to post everyday because I do enjoy writing and I think it helps my creative juices flow. Sometimes I’ll just find myself thinking of random topics to write about. It’s also sort of like a meditation for me. I think writing has really helped me sort through myself and figure things out.

But yeah, I’m going to bed now. I’m tired. Good night.